Nung sulat ko yung last entry... bangag sa byahe... I really don't travel well... tapos iyak pa ko ng iyak... ewan ko sa inyo, pero ako pagtapos ko iyak, aantok ako... pero di ako makakatulog kasi barado ilong ko dahil sa natuyong uhog... hay naku, kung walang uhog na kasama yung iyak... di masyadong convincing 'no... hehehehehehehehehe...
Taposin ko na 'tong Skins... para start ko na "Games of Thrones"...
episode 7
Effy has been in a psychiatric hospital, but with the help of Anthea and her counsellor John Foster, she finds the will to get stronger and return home. Her life is now dictated by routine and self-control. Anthea has completely cleared out her room so that there’s no evidence of the old Effy remaining. She appears happy, clear and hopeful for the future. However, Anthea and Freddie become worried about her counsellor's methods when she begins to reject her identity, her friends and her bad memories. She relapses when she and Cook walk past the scene of Tony’s accident and returns to hospital. Effy is upset when Foster arrives and Freddie threatens him, telling him to stay away. Foster then invites Freddie to his home where he admits to using unusual methods in Effy's case and to having feelings for her. However, as Freddie is about to leave, he finds the door is locked. Foster then lifts a baseball bat and brutally beats Freddie to death. Final appearance of Freddie.
Tapos, last episode, episode 8...
Karen and Cook are worried about Freddie's whereabouts. Karen gives Cook Freddie's notebook, which hints that John Foster wants to hurt Effy. The police raid Naomi's house after Cook's one night stand tells them where he is. Cook escapes and flees to Freddie's shed where he meets Effy. The rest of the gang meet there and throw a birthday party for Freddie in his absence. Naomi admits her love for Emily, who in turn takes her back. Cook heads outside briefly where he spots a figure observing Freddie's house and follows it, assuming it to be John Foster. Thomas and Pandora also make up. Cook breaks in to John's basement where he finds Freddie's blood-stained clothes. Foster soon arrives with the baseball bat and knocks him to the ground, telling him that he is “nothing." Cook rises, laughing and admits he is a criminal and has no sense. He then tells John that he knows he killed Freddie. He suddenly attacks and swings at Foster as the episode ends, leaving their fates unknown. Final appearances of Effy, Pandora, Thomas, JJ, Emily, Naomi, Cook, and Katie.
So, I have stopped crying and started thinking... life goes on, I know... I don't know what is happening to me... my brother observe that I have been quite emotional lately... di naman daw ako ganun dati... true... di ko alam... napakaiyakin ko lately... and needy... grabe... palagi ko hinahanap yung kapatid ko... nagkakaroon ako ng separation anxiety... nung punta ako sa RITM kahapon magisa... I keep texting him... ito pa, ewan ko, di na normal siguro 'to... I asked him to tack me to bed at night and stay there to watch over me until I fall asleep... I was never like that before... Before, I actually hate to even have someone else in my room, I can't sleep!!!
I don't know... maybe the drugs... My mom likes it... I text her, sometimes call, to tell her I am to sleep na... then, I tell her that I love her... dati kahit nga pasko di kami nagtatawagan eh...
So yun, mahal yung gamot... and yung mga test...
Well, yung mga test naman sa December pa... I still have time to raise the funds... hopefully I would be able to...
The gamot... well, mahal talaga siya... but maybe, I could do a day at a time... it is still Php47.25 a day but yun... I am telling you, tinitiis ko lang yung sakit ng paa ko... I need this... tipong, try na lang iraos...
So, I had my brother go and buy me 2 sets, for 2 days... that's Php94.50...
Then, binasa ko ulit yung last entry ko... and saw this...
"provides significant pain relief in about a third of people who take it for fibromyalgia or chronic neuropathic pain. It is also effective in reducing narcotic usage post operatively and is helpful in neuropathic pain due to cancer. It has not been shown to be useful for HIV associated sensory neuropathy. When used for neuropathic pain it does not appear superior to carbamazepine. Further evidence is needed to determine if it is effective for migraine prevention. It appears to be equally effective as pregabalin and is of lower cost. It does not appear to be of benefit in treating complex regional pain syndrome."
Plus, I went over again the article at Wikipedia... ang dami pala controversies yung Gabapatin... ang sakit ng ulo ko...
Pero, okay-okay... sige... I need to trust the doctor... it was prescribe... they know better... I really need to trust in that...
Ewan... dasal na lang siguro... dasal na lang ng dasal hangang mapakingan na Niya ko...
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