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Of course, I will test positive! Ano naman, anak ng diyos (what, a son of a god)?! I think even Thor will test positive if he had as much sex as I did. Why just a few nights ago, I went to unprotected foursome.

I know-I know-I know!!!

Well, I thought there were signs. Signs that it would be okay. That there was a go signal from up above. My temperature just went down and I was feeling okay. And then, well, I was constipated for a couple of days already, and suddenly, I defecated. Just like that, no struggle, just as soon as I seat on the toilet, there I was, unleashing all the bad elements in the world...

Plus, the guy was cute, the one who invited me. And he was talking about considering something serious with me. I didn't fall for it, I am not stupid... Okay, I am. But, it was nice, and that we are a match. The same age. Same height. Lives near, works near. Both, versa. So went the exchange of messages via planetromeo and at the end decided to exchange numbers.

At the back of my head, I knew it was a temptation, a test. You see I was bargaining with God. I was praying, asking Him to make me well and that if I get well, I would no longer have sex with just anyone, just because. Note, I just not going to have casual sex with random men, not have sex anymore. I made a provision that I will only have sex with someone I love and whom I have a meaningful relationship with. I knew, at the back of my mind, that it was test and I failed miserably.

Another thing, and maybe I should not be writing about this as it would be too embarrassing but hey, we don't know each other.

Lately, I am having trouble getting it up. Unlike before, I accidentally rub it against something and there it is, a bulge in my pants. And I can't decide if it is physical or psychological. Physical, I think, because I usually wake up with a hard on, not anymore. Psychological, as I do manage to get it up but it is a bit of a struggle, even with a hot porn on and I am not able to sustain it.

I thought I need “inspiration” and a foursome would do the trick. And it did at some point. If I am the center of attention, I get really hard but it dwindles. It was a hot session. Very hot. I won't go on to details but 4 good looking guys with great bodies, all versa, just imagine the possibilities.

Here is the fun part. When I got home and went to the bathroom to clean up. My ass was bloody. It worried me. I am bleeding inside. I am being punished. I went to google it. And well, it was bright red, so it will be on the rectal wall, not further inside. If it were further inside, the blood will be darker. My ass got strain probably with all the fucking I got, and wounded me and so the blood. But from the initial shock of a penetration, it was not painful. I thoroughly enjoyed how the other guy fucked me, not the guy who invited me. They were the only two who fucked me. The other guy, he didn't seemed to like me. Good thing, he have a huge tool, the two made me bleed, what more if he had fucked me?