I was joking about inheritance kasi... nagjoke ako na tatanongin ko na si Papa kung may mamanahin ba kami at kung mayroon eh ibigay niya na... kasi di natin alam 'tong sakit ko, baka next year bigla akong tamaan ng matinding infection at mamatay, di hindi ko natikman ang mana ko...
Parang si Daddy--uncle ko, asawa ng ate ni Mama... Ang pamilya ni Daddy ang isa sa pinakamayamang pamilya sa probinsya namin... nung namatay yung father nila, sinubukan nila na hingin na ang mana sa mother nila, anyway matatanda na sila... pero nagrefuse yung mother nila, kasi buhay pa naman siya... Eh diabetic si Daddy... nagkacomplication... then he died na di man lang natitikman yung mana niya...
Napaguusapan kasi ang mana... kasi nga may kinakasama na si Papa and I have two half brothers... although malinaw kasi na si Mama ang legal wife, we still don't know... and yun yung isa sa agenda naming magkapatid dapat sa pagpunta sa Davao... eh parang ang hirap pagusapan... paano ba...?
So yun... nagjoke ako ng ganun... birong totoo... kasi we will never know... anytime pwede akong tamaan ng matinding sakit... pwedeng mamatay ako or at least mabedridden ako... galit si brother... ewan ko... well, siguro kasi he have not fully grip my situation, at some point, indenial pa siya... at ayaw niyang pagusapan ang possibility that I might go already...
I think I am okay in going... well, kung oras ko na, oras ko na... and before, palaging hula sa akin, maaga akong mamatay... okay naman ako sa faith ko... and that, I don't think I have done something that warrants eternal damnation... not that I no longer want to live naman... madami pa akong gustong gawin... like I want to travel... I want to see Dubai... I want to experience the Olympics... I want to see Rome... but I have to ready of the eventuality... my family have to be ready of the eventuality...
naiiyak naman ako...
ReplyDeletethink positive always and stop thinking about bullshits. kakaisip mo ng negative kya ka nagiging sakitin.
I love u. I'll continue reading ur blog
not negative... I just think importante di na ihanda mo yung sarile mo at yung pamilya mo sa pwedeng mangyari...
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